Spending Time With My Baby

Aedan was such a good baby. He slept through the night when he was 3 weeks old. He never put things in his mouth. He would eat his vegetables. He was exactly what I wanted my child to be like. I always knew that I wanted kids and that I would love him more than anything. He had dark brown hair that later went blond and his eye color was one that I had never seen before. My mom describes them as a mud puddle with oil in it. We figured that meant they would change to brown like mine, but they never did. Some days his eyes get a little brown, but mostly stay somewhere between green, honey and hazel. I love his eyes I could talk about them forever. His got the longest eye lashes that I have ever seen on a little boy. When his hair goes longer it gets crazy and curly kind of like Heath Ledgers. Last year for Halloween he was the joker off of Dark Knight. I am a cosmetologist, so I have studied makeup and he came out so cute. I know he got the reaction that we wanted. He is my little man and I am so happy for him and my other children everyday. He is a great kid and so cautious, my mom comes over everyday and when she leaves he yells to her to be careful, since last summer when she was over they were playing hide and seek and she fell off of our blazer. I guess hes just worried about his grandma who is only in her mid-40s to fall and get hurt. My brother is his Godfather, he was more excited for Aedan to come than anyone. My dad wasn't really around much when we were growing up and now he isn't at all, so my brother is trying to make up for it. My kids are so lucky because they do have their parents and also my brother and many other relatives. Ryan (my brother) wasn't able to be at the hospital for my first son, but he was there for Braxton since he was a scheduled c-section and he also came to my ultrasound with Chad and I. He doesn't have any of his own children so he likes to spend time with mine. I remember when he was able to come and see Aedan in the hospital for the first time. He didn't say anything. I remember him telling me later how crazy it is to meet a family member for the first time. I didn't get to hold Aedan until he was about 6 or 7 hours old. I wasn't strong enough to hold him at first then I went to surgery for the next 3 hours. I had a hard time coming out of the anesthesia, so they wanted me to wait until I knew where I was and what had happened. Everyone also wanted me to sleep since it had been over 50 hours since I had last slept. I had been in knocked out for the past few hours so I had a lot of energy, and I didn't get to see everyone else meet him so I didn't want to miss any more.

The happiest day of my life

The happiest day of my life was the day that I found out that I was pregnant. My brother went with me to get the test and he was the first to know. Right away he wanted me to have a little boy which had always been a dream of mine. I didn't care if this baby was a boy or girl, I just wanted this baby. During the first few weeks after I found out about my baby, a friend of ours passed away from an aneurysm. It was a very hard time for everyone, but the baby that I was carrying made this a lot easier for me. This wasn't the first time that I had a friend die, and it also wouldn't be the last. I was so ready to be a mom to my own child, I had been a mom for a while already to Emilee and having this baby would not change me feelings towards her. I loved the thought that this baby was part of me but also part of so many people. I was so excited when I got to go in for my ultrasound but I was also very nervous. Chad was there with me and I knew that he also wanted a little boy and since this was my first child I thought that he might be disappointed if it was a girl. They had a high school job shadower that I had gone to school with just a year earlier, since she was there the woman giving me the ultrasound whispered it to me so no one else could hear. After I heard her tell me I kept questioning if I had heard her right. After everyone left the room except Chad and I, I knew that he wanted to ask me what she had said but I think he was to scared too. I waited a few minutes before I said anything. I asked so do you want to know? All he said was Its a girl isn't it? It was the best moment of my life to turn to him and so "Its a boy." On our way home we were listening to a CD that I had made for him and the song "One Boy, One Girl" by Colin Raye came on. I couldn't believe that not much then a year ago I had no children and now I was 19 and soon would have one boy and one girl.

My life and kids

I am Shanda, and I have been in a relationship for almost 5 years. In that 5 years my life has changed so much more then I expected it too. I graduated High School in 2004 and later that year Chad and I met. He had previously been in a very bad relationship that left him alone with a daughter that may or may not be his. The mother did not want her and signed her rights away when the little girl was 2. When I came around one of the first things that Chad told me was about this child. He asked me if I cared that he had a kid. I was 18 so I said no because I wasnt looking for anything serious. I guess it doesnt matter if you are looking or not, because I knew I was in love. Its a strange feeling seeing someone for the first time and knowing that they were a part of you and no matter how hard you try you know you have to take it when you can get it. I looked at this little girl, her dad was carrying her down the stairs, she had just woke up from a nap and looked at me. I was sitting there scared to death, the love that Ive talking about was this little baby. I eventually fell in love with her dad too, but this feeling I had, I knew that it must be what it felt like to hold your own child for the first time and having them look at you and knowing that this is someone that you'll know for the rest of your life. Its not often that you can have these experiences. How could her mom not want her. She has and older sister and 2 younger siblings that she kept. I wont say anything bad about her mom, because she really did give me a gift, her first school play, I was there, her first hair cut, I got to give it to her and my love she gets to feel everyday. It took me by surprise, I had never been very good with girls. I preferred to play cars and sports as a girl. I did get into makeup and fingernail polish the older I got, but the town I lived in was so small that the only girl close to my age was my younger sister. My brother and I were only a year apart and had been close all of our lives. Of course we went through the fighting stage like all families do. We got over those days and now my siblings are the best friends that I have.